Pretentious dialogues
What I'm about to say is a little scene that kept replaying in my head over and over for a while. Enjoy."How are you, genuinely?" She tilted her head to face me.
"I'm doing alright" I said. She had this way she would look at me, it made me feel transparent like she was staring deep into my soul. It was hard to look her in the eyes.
"You sure?"
"Yeah"
She scoffed at my comment. I felt like the mask was being ripped away from me
"What do you mean alright. Like what the fuck are you doing? How can you be satisfied with all this. Look at yourself mate, you don't feel like you belong here at all. You're so withdrawn from your own people, your own culture, you don't really care about it, hell you don't care about anything. You don't let people in you don't give them a chance to understand you and be there for you cause you're scared. Scared that no one might show up. You'd rather be left alone than be disappointed. The only time you felt truly understood was while reading books written by dead people and while listening to music that were made decades ago. You don't care about science, hell you hate technology and this so called modern world. You spent your time daydreaming about leaving everything behind to live somewhere disconnected from the outside world. The only thing you truly care about is your art but you seem to be slowly moving away from it. You promised me that you won't do that remember? Tell me, how are you so different from the so called shallow and unsophisticated people if you go along with the crowd, ignoring reality and your emotions. You're just a hypocrite. Don't mistake being busy and not having any time to think for being content. Life is not a fucking to do list, you'll regret living like that. Please just wake up"